I think I'm going crazy!
Holy crap, I feel like I have been the ultimate in slacker lately! I can not get caught up on life since my vacation. And this week is so not gonna help. Do you ever have those weeks when you just think, I can NOT do one more thing, and then boom, you get an invite on your door to another Pampered Chef party! Shiz! I mean poor Holden is confused enough and is still calling me Grandma, after being with her for a week while we were gone, and after I get finished with the rest of this week, he might wish I was her.
So my question is wear do I draw the line, something has to go! I feel so bad for my little family and yet, I just keep shoving! I think I need some serious help! I think I need to learn to say NO! But it just doesn't seem to come out of my mouth that much! Does anyone else feel my pain? And then when it is finally time to lay my body down for the night , and go to sleep, you think that happens? Oh no, this is my worry time, OH, I hope my sweet friend is doing OK, I haven't heard from her in awhile. Did I send Addie with lunch money today?, I hope Jason's job is secure, wonder if he gets laid off? What would we do? Is gas really gonna stay this low or should I go buy gas cans and stock up? Did I pay the power bill? Ya, I did, no, did I? When do I ovulate next and does Jason have those days off :) I really need to get braces back on, my fang is getting out of control. I NEED to get up and make it to the gym tomorrow, my muffin tops are coming back! Oh poop, I forgot to call back my client to reschedule her, she is gonna think I don't want to do her hair anymore...... And on and on and on, tell somewhere in there I fall asleep and then incorporate it into my dreams! Speaking of, I should probably get started on this process!
But, heaven forbid I cut out my blogging time!:) Ahh... this to shall pass! This is just the life of a mother, wife, friend, sister...WOMAN!!! I just needed to vent a little! Nighty night! ~Rob
So my question is wear do I draw the line, something has to go! I feel so bad for my little family and yet, I just keep shoving! I think I need some serious help! I think I need to learn to say NO! But it just doesn't seem to come out of my mouth that much! Does anyone else feel my pain? And then when it is finally time to lay my body down for the night , and go to sleep, you think that happens? Oh no, this is my worry time, OH, I hope my sweet friend is doing OK, I haven't heard from her in awhile. Did I send Addie with lunch money today?, I hope Jason's job is secure, wonder if he gets laid off? What would we do? Is gas really gonna stay this low or should I go buy gas cans and stock up? Did I pay the power bill? Ya, I did, no, did I? When do I ovulate next and does Jason have those days off :) I really need to get braces back on, my fang is getting out of control. I NEED to get up and make it to the gym tomorrow, my muffin tops are coming back! Oh poop, I forgot to call back my client to reschedule her, she is gonna think I don't want to do her hair anymore...... And on and on and on, tell somewhere in there I fall asleep and then incorporate it into my dreams! Speaking of, I should probably get started on this process!
But, heaven forbid I cut out my blogging time!:) Ahh... this to shall pass! This is just the life of a mother, wife, friend, sister...WOMAN!!! I just needed to vent a little! Nighty night! ~Rob
posted by Robyn at
10:26 PM
12 Comments:
Oh Robyn, how I can relate. I am definitely a fellow worrier! I often feel crazy as well. What do ya do, take it one day at a time, I guess. Justin tells me I need to learn to say 'No' more. What can I say, life is tough and kind of crappy most the time :).
I am the SAME way! If you do get up the nerve to say No to something, you really feel guilty. HATE THAT!
So, this made me think of a time almost 2 years ago. I was SO swamped. SO overwhelmed. I didn't think I could ever possibly get it all done. I had WAY too much on my plate. Enrichment Night for an EXTREMELY high maintenance ward, who knew if after all my planning anyone would even show up?! Collections, billing, scheduling, phones, creating a new Maintenance Agreement plan for Ryan at work, Then the kids! UGH! 6 different kinds of therapy and I must get them in each week. Don't forget to stretch Dawson, his muscles are getting too tight. Mal needs her neck stretched several times a day and oh yeah she might be Autistic (totally not entertaining that right now BTW). I couldn't do ONE more thing. Couldn't afford to be out of commission for ONE minute. Then....
Dawson woke up with a baseball sizes blood blot on his cheek. Came from him nose (no clue how it got out). Run to the doctors an hour and a half away just to find out that we would be life flighted to Utah because he has Spinal Menengitis AGAIN! This means hospital for 5 weeks! Away from my family. Away from everything that had to be done.
And guess what....I spent 5 weeks in the hospital holding my baby with a tube coming out of the top of his head and connected to a bag by the side of his bed. I spent the nights in a hotel all by myself. I did NOTHING on my list that HAD to be done or somehow the world would stop spinning. AND when I got back home...miraculously it all was...still spinning!
That was the greatest lesson I have ever learned! I had to learn to take a deep breath, say No when my family will suffer because of my "other" things. Rely on Ryan for tons of help, which he is really great at, and realize that if the collections don't get done this week...well, there are some happy people in Utah that get one more break! :)
This is officially the longest comment ever. I just wanted to tell you all of that. Rob, everyone loves you so much because you always make everyone feel loved and important to you. Do what you can do and then don't worry about the rest. It will work itself out. AND you, Jas and your kiddos will be happy!
Wow... I read your post then amy's comment... You always have to remember that someone always has it better and someone always has it worse, but we all have our time to do better or worse... Some time in your life you will find out that all the little things that we stress over are the things that don't matter, if you have to say no to someone and they are upset, then they are not worth your time. You can't feel guilty... that IS when you go crazy. You are a good person and people should love you for who you are and not what you do for them. Sometimes you do need to step back look at your life and see what can be cut out or what your family can do to help carry the load. I tell you when you have something that threatens your happy family, there is nothing else in the world that matters! Love ya and see ya tomorrow!
Robyn-What a multi tasker you are!! I do not think we would have it any other way. I know there are days that we wish time would stand still. But then I think we would complain that we are bored and need something to do. Somewhere we have to find a balance, somewhere. Anyway you are an amazing person, friend and mom!!
I am a loser and you have now been added to my friends list...sorry it hasn't been sooner you had to pass a little test...j/k Love ya!
Rob, I freakin' love you. That's all I can say!!!! Your posts make me smile. :)
I think that's our jobs as women - to do it all and then do some more. I have a friend who has a policy of saying "no" to all sales-party invites...so Just Say No. People really will understand and won't like you any less. You're an awesome woman and never doubt that for a second!
I agree to you when you work, kids, husband, family, friends, church callings etc.... the list could keep going on. I just make sure that I just explain to people that my family comes first and so if I miss something to not take it to heart. The worring thing im a freak I totaly have anxiety if I dont get enough sleep thats totaly what I turn into. You are just one of those people that is involved in alot because you are to fun so just deal with it j/k love ya good luck
I don't know what your complaining about, you have so much free time on your hands!!! Ha ha yeah I am sorry it seems that the world just loves to throw things things left and right, but then just when you think it's under control, oh no here comes another one!! Just hang in there!! P.s. Do what I do when it comes to the party thing(don't go if you don't want or need anything, then you won't feel pressured to buy something you really don't want. Hubby will be happy and you will not be kicking yourself for spending $50 on a necklace you will never wear!)
Wow, Robyn, what can I say that hasn't already been said... It really is hard to make everyone happy and not hurt anyone's feelings. The most important thing is your family. I would start with them, and when there needs are being met, then add something else.. you truly are an awesome person, don't ever second guess that. Love you, dollface!
I hear ya. I can never tell people no either. You just end up letting things drop anyways.
for what it's worth i am so glad you came to Recipe Club. it was really fun & yummy. you'll get through it! don't kill yourself over the holidays!
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